Sex In Stereo

No more detours. Today I will keep going to get better. Sorry Beth but no more games. 

I’m going to win this competition. I will totally win. 

Mom logic 

Your child that never goes out on the weekends goes to one rec center party? Guess that means she goes out every weekend! 

It’s been a terrible day. This girl who I thought was my best friend got angry at me and I don’t even know what to do. I just want to kill myself so badly right now it’s not even funny. I want to cut really badly but it sucks cause I can’t. I feel a panic attack coming on and I want to cry but I’m in a public place and I can’t cry. I can’t cry right now. I never do anything right and it sucks. I want to be perfect. I want to be everything but everyone doesn’t care. I try so hard to please everyone. So far the person who I thought was my best friend is my worse enemy. She hates me with a passion. I make mistakes. It’s not fair. I can’t be perfect! I can’t! i can’t be perfect. I can’t be perfect. I can’t be perfect. I can’t be perfect. HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO SAY THAT UNTIL SOMEONE CARES! I AM OVER THE EDGE READY TO DO WHATEVER STUPID THING COMES TO MIND BUT I CAN’T BUT I WANT TO AND FJERJNWEJLRIJOEWJIOR! GAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I NEED TO I HAVE NO FUCKEN IDEA ANYMORE. I WANT TO DIE RIGHT NOW. I WANT SOMEONE TO JUST KILL ME. I WANT TO BLEED TO DEATH. I WANT TO CHOKE TO DEATH. I DON’T FUCKEN CARE! ITS NOT LIKE ANYONE WILL CARE IF I DO. Jesus Christ I am insane. I don’t even know. God attention whore…. oh well. I don’t have my diary so here is tumblr its not like anyone even reads my posts so what do I have to worry about? Jenn is sad. I don’t even know. I just wanna die is all i know….

Life sucks and then you die. That is all 

Alyssa bought up a good point. If Tom was awake when I was choking who knows why I was choking. Lolz. Wink wink nudge nudge